On Your Mark...

After being discharged from the hospital, I found myself in this weird limbo. Exercise and school were my life and I wasn't supposed to exercise and it was summer break, so no school. I did have two part time jobs- one at an ice cream shop and the other at a bakery- but for someone who likes to have my day fully scheduled, there was still a lot of unaccounted time. I tried to take up some new hobbies; the ones that landed well (initially) were: pottery, weeding, picking up tr

Okay, into the nitty gritty! [this one's going to be a long haul] Like I said, my mom and I went down to this place called the Upstate New York Eating Disorder Service (had to look it up just now). I really had no idea at the time what I was even going to- all I knew is that my mom had made an appointment at this place that could potentially help with my breathing problems. During that appointment, I had metabolic testing done and met with a dietician who had me fill out a qu

The path towards diagnosis. Lydia continues to detail her experience from beginning of April to mid-May 2021

In my experience, this term is as just as much a part of the freshman year experience as the harder coursework and bad roommate. I started hearing 'freshman 15' talked about in high school when my friends would ask if we had seen Angelina's* latest post on Instagram [usually we all had]. Someone in the group would then say something along the lines of 'she really did gain that 15 didn't she?' or 'boy did she get thick'. This stuck with me more than I realized. In fact, it bec

Food: this is the part of an eating disorder (will refer to as ED) that most people are more familiar with. Only, in my experience, I have found that the knowledge stops right about at the question “oh so you don’t/didn’t eat?” The approach to eating varies greatly for each person and it is impossible to talk about every experience- especially to start out- so I will focus on mine for now! I want to preface with saying that there is not one reason an ED forms. I am still comi

Alright as promised, let's begin the deep dive into why and how an eating disorder. Keep in mind, eating disorders are a bit dense so it'll take a sec for the full picture to develop. And when it does, if you could show me that picture I'd super appreciate it! Okay, so... not sure if you heard but there was a pandemic that happened! For me, I was in senior year of high school at the onset of the world shutting down and had no idea how that would impact my life to present day.

One of my many flights back to NY since moving to CO First, thank you to anyone who is reading. You have no idea how long it has taken me to get to the place to actually write something, so your time and attention means the world. A little about me: I am in my early twenties and currently live with my cat in Denver, Colorado. I am from New York State originally and I'll always want to be by water if I'm not able to... hence I find myself at a crossroads since I've been living